I’ve read in the Bible where is says “be anxious for nothing” but I’m finding hard to live it right now. I have a knot in my stomach feeling like there is too much to accomplish in 1 month and not enough willingness to do it (not on my part). Then I look at all I want to do and think that possibly there are some things I need to let go of until a later date. It is really difficult when all along the way I have come against a veritable “brick wall” to try to do things in advance. Now its crunch time and I can’t sleep. What does that accomplish? Me being tired the next day and irritable. Now, not that I want the community [the Bridge or otherwise] to come calling and see what they can help with but it makes me think about this whole “sharing life” attitude. I’m not sure I completely buy that American culture can actually live it. We can’t wait to turn 18 so we can move out on our own, we agonize over the thought of getting married or moving in with someone because we may lose our “independence”. (Am overusing quotation marks? I owe it to Dodgeball) When our parents become of an age unable to care for themselves we put them in homes where others can take care of them, not us. Can a culture so saturated with the “ideal” of being independent…job, house, wealth etc really live as community? Maybe, but I think it’s gonna take a big shift in the way people think. I suppose it starts with those who really want it to begin ingraining it in their children. Notice I said “their”, I don’t know if I want it. I guess I’m about to be thrust in 100% to try it out. I’ll let you know how it goes. I’ll tell you what though, yesterday I read the mail to my grandpa-in-law because he is blind. It felt good. I think I may like it. There will be challenges but I think it’s going to be good. Now, back to worrying about how to get everything done.

I am on the brink of moving in with my in laws, plus a grandpa. I am nervous, I’ll admit. The reason for doing so is NOT to save money, but to help with the health problems of said in-laws…AWWW, how sweet- no not really. This last month is going to be nerve wracking to say the least. My one hope for this whole trasnsition is to bring a positive “vibe” (if you will) to the household. My tendency is to hide or complain to my husband. I read in James today (Living Bible) “Listen much, speak little and do not be angry.” Prayers for this are appreciated. Also anyone who wants to help us move on July 24th, that’s appreciated too. I promise this will be it for awhile…:) !

I just got my Gmail account. So now I can be like all the “computer-Y” guys! Yay, am I in the club, now? Huh? huh? Am I am I?

Would it be, could it be, possible, for people – regular humans to tell each other if they have a problem? Whether it be with that person or something they said or did, or just in general. Secondhand information sucks. I want face to face conversation. Do you avoid it? If so, why? I am so much closer with the people who have the cajones to get in my face. Deep thoughts….

I sold an item on Ebay that was broken when it arrived to the buyer. He insists on complete refund including shipping, I disagree. He also says it was packed badly and that the post office has no part in the damage. He was offered insurance and did not opt to buy it. I have offered him a refund, minus shipping. What would you do?

Summer is upon us and by us I mean me. My kids get out of school tomorrow and then it is the great motherly challenge to find things to do other than super glue the TV on Cartoon Network and the kids to the floor. What kinds of things should one do to keep summer interesting, but not labor intesive? Suggestions?

Emma’s Pony ride at the circus! 

The Circus: Riley on a pony ride! 

No Cruelty Here! 

I was wondering how someone gets in the circus? Not that I want to join, but is is really something you run away to join? Are you born into it? Are you chasing a girl like in Big Fish? Well, whatever. We went on Saturday and it was great. I can’t believe some on the things humans can do, or train themselves to do. Truly amazing. Not really sure what to think about the protestors. Did God create animals for our pleasure? I think so. Are they treated cruelly? Not that I saw, but you never know about that. I guess that would be the same for child abuse. You don’t always suspect it or even see it. Does that mean we stop all people from having kids? What do you think?